I just realized how close I am to becoming a college student. I have a lot of things on my mind lately. I just really want to be ‘good’ enough for the school that I want, and then be more independent and strong. I’m afraid I’m not strong enough for the ‘outside’ world.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not anti-social or socially awkward. I can talk to people pretty well. It’s just that I don’t like to interact with people that much. Not that I can’t. I just don’t like the fact I have to interact with them (even if I find them nonsensical) to survive and not be alone. I may not be alone, but I feel lonely nonetheless. At least it doesn’t show.
Also, I’m going to stay in a condominium anyway. I need to learn how to use my time properly, and learn a few things that I’ve been dying to learn. I will probably have more time for myself and responsibilities I have to shoulder and do. Oh well, at least I can still enjoy my high school life (though I have to admit it’s hard to wake up every morning just to attend a school you loathe).
And you know what? Because of this Catholic school I’m in, I’m starting to know why there are so many atheists around the world. What they say about some Catholics are true, anyway. This school and it’s nuns can be so cruel and selfish and all the things you don’t want to encounter.
I understood that before, but I’m experiencing it now.
Anyway, that’s all for now. Hope I can write more and read more. I’ve been procrastinating, and I still have a piece (Balagtasan) to memorize. Bye.